Friday, 5 October 2007

Changes,Changes Everywhere...... But nothing over here!!!!!

It has been quite a while since I posted something over here.Well to tell a fact, it was because of sheer Laziness.Initially, I wouldn't get time enough as I was totally busy with Never Materialising schedules and D days. Initially I had a small confidence in my abilities of Self Control and patience. But day by day that is also decreasing. Now everything is coming up as a mechanical routine wherein everything falls into its place AUTOMATICALLY.
I am really beginning to hate this. The work is not at all interesting. Its getting repetitive and I am pulled into unwanted discussions and arguments.I am slowly beginning to realise that I was Destined to end up here. Never was I a keen researcher or Theorist to propose Ideas.But I had this Uncanny ability to understand the most difficult of all Ideas once coming across it personally, even if I may not comprehend the thing fully. But this repetitiveness is killing me. Moreover Now I feel that my freedom has also been reduced by the burden of responsibilities. Responsibilities are nothing new to me. But never ever have I come across such a scenario. It is like having the entire house under my disposition but still I am not supposed to touch anything.Well, Let me see How long it goes, sometimes scenarios can have a rapid turn around and before you know everything would be normal again.

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