Normally I would not have sat in front of the com for writing all those what I am about to write.But this forum has given me a great platform to speak out my feelings. The atmosphere that I am in right now is all very pleasant and ideal for writing a long Diary entry. Previous year I had a personal Diary where I used to write about my day-to-day life and enjoy the way I had performed(or Failed to perform). This year I don't feel like continuing it because I have this unusual habit of not sticking onto any good practices in my life throughout.
Today is a very important day in my life due to many reasons. Today is the day where in all the important decisions are going to be made about my future. The day would not have been any better since I have two production issues to look into as well as sending mails regarding VISA and BOI Testing. I have a week long Vacation Plan in front of me. And as soon as I come back I am sure that I will have a huge amount of workload. But this was always On cards. The way life was moving from the last couple of months, I should have expected all this to crash into me.
Today I am feeling more and more nervous about the possibilities of an imminent breakdown. I have not got enough control over my credit card expenses till date. Though there has not been any big purchases apart from the Onam one, this new card has given a boost to my Shopping sense.I expect a shock any time this week, because I have a curious feeling about something brewing up in the background. Though I am not able to clearly pin-point to what exactly is going to happen, I have this sixth-sense on some surprise lying in store for me when I reach there.
The week next is going to be hectic with all those places to visit and functions to attend.I am not sure how I am planning to reach each and every place on time.Moreover I have to give the bike for Service here also. I don't think the Long trip planned for next month with Raghuji is going to be a reality.
Yesterday I had a small scrap-chat with Dennis. What he says is If u have 2-3 months of solid brushing-up, GATE Score > 98 is achievable. This has really added to my dilemma now. I don't know when I will a get a solid 2-3 months of time for all those. In fact all my seniors were correct in advising me not to go for a Job if I had my higher studies fixed as my next path. The truth is that I never believed that I had the Calibre to excel in a competitive examination like GATE. But now that all my friends are telling about their experiences in Higher Studies, I have a strong urge to start thinking about GATE 2008 seriously.
Talking about all these.There was One more big question raised to me today by one of my friends: What if .......?
No, Leave it. I don't want to give my mind a false hope. It may lead to disappointments and I may not have strength enough to rise from the ashes.After all, what is there to hope? It is all too evident and crystal clear. You will get only what you rightfully deserve.
Today is a very important day in my life due to many reasons. Today is the day where in all the important decisions are going to be made about my future. The day would not have been any better since I have two production issues to look into as well as sending mails regarding VISA and BOI Testing. I have a week long Vacation Plan in front of me. And as soon as I come back I am sure that I will have a huge amount of workload. But this was always On cards. The way life was moving from the last couple of months, I should have expected all this to crash into me.
Today I am feeling more and more nervous about the possibilities of an imminent breakdown. I have not got enough control over my credit card expenses till date. Though there has not been any big purchases apart from the Onam one, this new card has given a boost to my Shopping sense.I expect a shock any time this week, because I have a curious feeling about something brewing up in the background. Though I am not able to clearly pin-point to what exactly is going to happen, I have this sixth-sense on some surprise lying in store for me when I reach there.
The week next is going to be hectic with all those places to visit and functions to attend.I am not sure how I am planning to reach each and every place on time.Moreover I have to give the bike for Service here also. I don't think the Long trip planned for next month with Raghuji is going to be a reality.
Yesterday I had a small scrap-chat with Dennis. What he says is If u have 2-3 months of solid brushing-up, GATE Score > 98 is achievable. This has really added to my dilemma now. I don't know when I will a get a solid 2-3 months of time for all those. In fact all my seniors were correct in advising me not to go for a Job if I had my higher studies fixed as my next path. The truth is that I never believed that I had the Calibre to excel in a competitive examination like GATE. But now that all my friends are telling about their experiences in Higher Studies, I have a strong urge to start thinking about GATE 2008 seriously.
Talking about all these.There was One more big question raised to me today by one of my friends: What if .......?
No, Leave it. I don't want to give my mind a false hope. It may lead to disappointments and I may not have strength enough to rise from the ashes.After all, what is there to hope? It is all too evident and crystal clear. You will get only what you rightfully deserve.
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