Friday, 27 July 2007

The Day It all Started

It was not hasty decision I suppose. I had weighed all the pro's and cons of starting a post like this.Atlast, I am also stepping into the cyber world where my musings will be kept intact in the forms of an HTML page(or whatever the technology is behind this).

I am not expecting someone to post a comment to posts that I am going to Put over here. Atleast I am not an SRK or Abdul Kalam to command a huge amount of fan following and correspondingly increased views into this particular blogspot.. But it atleast opens up a venue wherein people can have a peek into my life.

The next big question would be :
"Will I be able to sustain the interest that I have now for expressing my thoughts in Public"


Well the answer to this would be "I dont know" (You might have guessed this already).

But what I do believe is that I am not afraid of judgement by others on myself.Ofcourse all throughout my school life and College life I had this image of an obedient and intelligent kid who would not like to tarnish his image. I guess it is time for me to break free from that.

Ofcourse, It does not mean that I am not what I am. It simply means that I cannot be the same person whom everybody is accustomed with.Experiences and Situations has had a great influence over my personality,lifestyle and ofcourse on interactions.I had never expected myself to be in a position to write all this, but alas, the inevitable has happened.

The greatest problem with me is that , I never liked someone advising me. Though,at every nook and corner of my life I have asked for(sometimes even begged for) advices from persons close to me. Even I believed that I had a perfect reasoning mind which will never go wrong. But History has shown me that I AM WRONG. I am a character who easily falls for Outside images. I think it is the single biggest weakness that I posses and add on to that the absolute disregard that I have for authority.

I have always believed that I have that extra Leadership ability inside me, though my experiences have always proved me wrong. But still every place I go I have this proven ease with the Top brass that I am not not sure why I cannot be one among them. Well I guess ultimately I will have to tread through a cautious path each time now as I am aware what is going on there at the Top.And from now onwards I am looking into the prospects of staying as much clear from those hungry wolves.

The dream of a free and liesurely life has been robbed away from the moment I threw away the Uniform of a student. Now what else is left in this Life is only the bondaged life of an Adult.

Well, it is almost enough for the Topic : How it all Started, I guess. Future Posts may not be as revealing as this is, but still the element of Honesty wont be droppped.

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